I know I have been pretty quiet as to how the adoption is going and all the details. There are many reasons for my silence, some I will share some I wont. Bloggy world can be a blessing and a curse when dealing with matters of the heart - can there be any more sensitive subject than our children? Not in my book.
As I have said many times before this has been a wild ride. There has been sooooo (I can't add as many oooooo's as I want to) much with this process. And I am thankful for each one. It has changed who I am, and not that I was a bad person before, it is not about that, it is about the heart - I believe my heart beats, possibly, closer to God's and the things of Him. My heart is now breaking for the things that breaks His and, I hope, I am less focused on myself and more in Christ.
People have asked time and time again - Why are you adopting? This question stumps me every time - how do you explain a heart change? How do you explain your eyes being opened? How do I explain the process God brought me through to get me to this point? So today it dawned on me how I am going to answer - It is not about me! It is the first words to The Purpose Driven Life book (sadly, I do believe I am the only soul who has not read it) but I do know that is how it starts and I completely get what he is saying - IT IS NOT ABOUT ME!! It is not about what I want or need. It is about a couple coming to a point in their life, crying out to God and getting an answer. If you have never done that - I highly recommend it! Obey the call - in that, you will find the life Jesus was talking about (Mark 8:34-36).
So where are we at and how is it going? It is going great! Do I wish Isaiah was here 3 months ago, yes! But I also know that God has perfect timing and I am trusting in that. We are taking each step at a time. Currently we have been approved by our country - which was a big deal and today we are sending all the paperwork to Uganda. We are hoping to travel in October. All the details of that are being lifted up to our Savior and asking him to show the way and I believe He will!